Grateful to be sober today. Soundness of my mind body and soul.
Grateful that because I opened up my mouth the truth fell out and now I am getting the help I need. And for the record I need a lot of help. Grateful for the third step, Made a decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of a Higher Power. And how after I make that decision I get to practice the almighty spiritual tool; relaxation. If I’m relaxed I’m trusting my Higher Power. Sometimes this comes in waves of forgetting I have shit to worry about and I believe that’s my God doing for me what I can’t do for myself: Let Go! I have a mind that is addicted to thinking. And thinking is so often the root of my troubles. My auto pilot when thinking is fear. Prayer, gratitude, singing and playing, working with others, this all uses my brain and it goes against the grain of my ego. Thank God for the women in my life and a loving home life that supports me being my best self. I love myself- imperfectly imperfect like the rest of you!
This is my gratitude list today. Gratitude divorces me from self pity! And my self centered fear… I didn’t make this stuff up. I hear it around and apply what I can and it works! If you’re struggling to find peace or contentment today I’d invite you to make a list of the things that are happening around you. Start simply. Maybe you have a stocked fridge or warm socks. Maybe you just got a promotion or maybe seemingly nothing is going your way right now. The pain we feel, wether it’s self inflicted or not, is real. The solution may not lie to far away from the silver lining. How are you growing in this pain your heart is in? How will you put the pieces together in your new found puzzle, will it be the kind of picture you want to hang in your kitchen?
Sometimes just being in the question is the answer. It’s enough to simply ask. Well, what are you waiting for? Get going tiger!